No topics to write liao

Hmm nowadays lot of people caught for infamy, thus must be careful of what u write... Noramally , I usually complain abt my job... guess I can't do that anymore... Hmm thus my blog will contain even more mundane stuff... Haiz... So sian...cos I have nothing more interesting things to say liao... haha... boring old me...

Wedding photos

Hey The follwoing are my friend's wedding photos... can see that his wife is v pretty sia... And one thing to note... my arms look fats in the photo despite of regular workout... Hmm prompt me to work out more ...

HEY red eye day

Today is a day I got sore eyes. Haiz... So now, I m teary and itchy when I m typing this...

Well, have to say that I m heng to get this today and not yesterday, else I will not be able to complete my printing leh. Then it will be resemble last year when I get my gastric flu during this period, literally vomitting over the papers. This apparently has leave a deeep impression in my admin clerk as he ask me whether I m feeling well this year. Well yes, until today... This few days is like a frenzy... Setting papers, redo my papers, and go for after sch lessons in the midst of this storm... Haiz...I m overwhelmed.

Yesterday, I told vee galz that I dun feel like going to rock climbing tmr as I wun have time to prepare for my revison paper. Now due to my beloved eye, I can't go for rock climbing, g 's bday and ah sia bday celebration liao...tmr I will have a nice long break so tat I can prepare the papers... so it is actually not so bad... Haiz. I guess I wld have a gd and productive rest this weekend.

One thing to note... Lots of colleauge msg me to check out whether I m okie... yup... I think I will be fine. No relief for u guys on MOn then *wink*

本当に久しぶりに!!

Wow... been a while since I update my blog... Better write something else the intented audience will all run away liao woh...

I m so busy nowadays that I have slept for only "let me count" 4 hr only. Oh my god.
I wonder why I can still function. Heng my gd friends all blog, else how to catch up with their busy life... Seems like they are into banking recently... Hmm so chim, have to ask Vee galz what she means, so stoopid of me leh.

Today, fujiwara ask me whether I have friends who can teach PSLE Chinese. " Huh, I tot PSLE is in 2 wks time." Turn out that the parents want the kid to have intensive revision. This set me pondering, does this kid really need it, or it is the parents who have no faith in their child abilities?

Honestly, Fujiwara and me think that it wun make a great difference in this late stage. Somewat like terminal cancer;surely die if the kid is v v poor in Chinese. Thus the only hope is to pray for miracle. It turn out that one of my friends can teach but due to sumountable pressure, she politely declined the offer. Can't blame her, I oso wun want to earn a reputation of being a bad tutor in such situation. If the kid turn out to have gd results, will I be justified to get the credit... Maybe not.

Toting abt exams/ I think my bro is stress over his exam... His blog told me so...I ask him to work hard in his blog's comment. See 私は急がしのにおととの事をしなければ残念です。Jialat, I think blog is the only thing that kept me in touch wif my close ones... Haiz. I so 可怜。

Wedding Oh

Hmmm Attend a wedding yesterday at Ling Zhi Vege... Food is real gd.. The bride is so pretty... My fren is so lucky to marry such a beautiful woman... Hmm of cos he is quite a catch lah. I was in charge of the reception and because of the English labeling such as faith and contentment, a lot of those non- speaking relative can't find their seats. Thus the task is thrust upon us to help them find their seats... Argh and some of them rearrange among themselves and cause inconvienence to other guests that came later...
Realise the wedding reception was so much work... Video, light, reception and stuff... My frens and I were popped. And now I still have to work... Arghhh

Revelation of the quarter of a century me

How do u identify the coming of age?
In Japan, there is a ceremoney that celebrate adulthood at the age of 20. This year, my religion will also have this similar kind of ceremoney in Taiwan. Those between 18 - 22 are to go there wif their family and celebrate the adulthood of the children. Parents are suppose to give a gift to their "adult" kid and the kid has to kowtow to their parents...

Altho these are the rituals, does anyone grow up that quickly, like poof. 18, we are grown physically but not grown in anywhere else. When I was 18, everything was rosy. I expect myself to go to Uni, find a gd course, study, get gd prospects, find my soulmate... Honestly, when u are young, everything seems so attainable...

Then u graduate, reality start to sunk in. I m one of the unlucky many to graduate in a year of bad economy aggravate by SARS. The job market was gloomy... I m scared, so scared that I decided to jump into the first job that was been offered. I never go and look around and analysed what job suited me. I m just scared that I will have no job, no income and incessant nagging from parents that I din try hard enuf or I m too choosy ... The job turn up fine despite my complains and stuff.And Yes! still no appearance of my significant other half. If I go by my own yardstick set when I was 18, I m a failure.

18 years olds, what do they know? How can u force them to be adults when they haven't seen the real world yet...

Last Sun, a group of my buddies and I celebrated one of our many bday... To my surprise and delight, our perspective changes, we seems older now, not so idealistic and more receptive with how the world really works. So much has change, even if we want to, we can't be 18 anymore. How I wish to drop all those grown up stuff and indulge in unrealistic fantasy. But can't, once grown, u can't revert back. Mental growth is seldom reversible, perhaps with the exception of having Alzheimer.

The quarter of a century me, noe what to expect when things does't go my way,noe how to make things happen if I really try hard, instead of lamenting at my failure. Know that things happen for a reason. Put more faith in God and spending quality time wif family and dun take things for granted; for the things existing today may be gone tmr.

AS maturity come with age, I can't image what will happen in 10 years or 20 years time. Will I grow into a better skin or will I stay the quarter of a century me... No matter what, just hope tat I will like myself when that moment come.

Blogskin on construction

Hi, will like to find another blogskin... meanwhile just revert back to the old one... the black one is really hard to see haha...

Just some musing

Well... Beside doing up my blog, I have done other stuff too...
Thu
1.Drag myself out from bed.
2. Eat a full breakfast tat is rarely prepared by Mumsie. (veg burger and Lipton Tea)
3. Reach the ROCK , nv seen the rock tho. Went thu a rendition of musicals and talks regarding humour. Some good joke, some worse off than my colleauges'.
4. Go shopping, decided that can't buy anything, must save $$$ can't slurge, alto a cute puma tank tried its hardest to crumble my will.
5. Register for my JLPT... Yip, it is official, got something to work hard to. Too bad it clash with the standard charted Marathon, else I will join the 10k race.Haiz, too bad. Hope tat can join it nxt year.
6. Went kardiosculpt and to my initial disappointment, my instructor was not ard. The replacement instructor is as good tho, the routine work hard on my muscle and I really felt toned up after the workout... Maybe will do his classes next time.

Hmm thus, nothing too interesting to updates... Tmr will go Cali gym with the gals, lets see whether ah Li will be pick up by the PT again? Haha

New Image

New Image

Oh my I have finally try to revent my blog... All thanks to vee galz who did a fabulous job with her one... I spent a lot of time trying to search for the new one... I Have try my best to alter the existing HTML of the contributors... Hard as I have no experience with HTML at ALL!
But still, I feels that the time spent is worth it... Initially, I have try to use the blogskin that is adpated form Jimmy Liao, but feels that it is not my style, alto I got a lot of his books, but his graphics are more willowy pretty. I m more suited for the angst pattern, yet cute at times.. Hence I think this suit me a lot woh...
Thus I abandoned the old skin and put on a new one, like a chamelon.

I also got my blades today... Hooray, I think the wind must have blown away my notification slip as I suppose to get my blades last Fri... Thus 1 wk late...
Heng ah, else they may sent the blades back to the owner. Then I will die liao...

Thus Today is my good day...
I will blog more tmr. Too tried for changing my skin.

Oh my Oh my...

I m in sch now, waiting for my HOD so as to return him all the cameras and machine history cards for the auditors... I hate auditors ( no offence lah Vee galzs). Cos I always freak out when they come, as u know I m the world worst organiser and I always lost my stuff... I need to search for all those things that dun seems important before the grand arrival of the auditor... My Goodness.

Then I forget the time that I need to go for the CCAB, then I realised that the timeslot is on my table. Arghhh I m supposed to be there from 7 - 11pm... *Dead* meat. Must breath breath.

So today is an unfortunate day for urs truely... Time and time again there will be these kind of days... sob sob..I m again stuck in a rut.

3rd day of the holiday

I m panicking... 3rd day of sch holiday and the end is near... I will need to return to sch soon and TEACH. Arghh, I wish it is the dec holidays, then can relax more. The week has go swooshing by me.

Sat: Gone for IT lessons held by my religion pple in processing photography and then end up in projects that need to be done. ( argh)

Sun: Gone for Sci Centre trip with my youth group(50 pax). Stranded in torrential rain. Tuition for my sec 5 tutee whom I have taught since Uni days and can't be abandoned due to "O" levels.

Mon: Bake muffins. Eat muffins.

Tue: Go jalan wif Mummy down at bugis and check out the New NLB at the same time.Kickboxing at nite.

Wed: Suposed to go down to CCAB. But then no time slot is been allocated so maybe can don't go. Need to go to sch. Go to Spa ( annoying amore spa personel want me to use my spa vouchers , I dun even want to waste my 30 bucks). Religion class at nite...

See I dun have a break... How I wish I can have a few days of uninterrupted sleeps aka sleeping beauty style, altho pple has nv seen a more ugly sleeping " beauty". Duh... I wld also like to watch my DVD that looks so alluring and entrancing. YET arghhhhhh...

Validation

All of us love validation sometimes.
Some of us love it to a high degree, while others less so. I like validiation, but I preferred to do it myself. My best friend had commented that I m a me and me alone person. Yah, I m independant women. I can do activities alone, I dun even mind eating alone. In the validation scale(by others) of 1- 10, I m probably a 3.

Meaning, I need some validation from others yet most of time, I heck care. Maybe this got to do with having parents that disagree with everything u do and having a super mum, that u have to keep up or to outdone. I seldom need validation from them, if I rely that for survival, I will be starve to death. That allow me to be independant, made my own decisions and suffer from my own mistakes. You may think that I seems to be blaming them, but NO! HonestlyI have to thankful to them as I have been conditioned to learn on own and rely on myself.

This cannot be say for the new generation. From today ST, you can see that there is a lot of parents who have to put in their foot in every single things that their children do. How can some of these children survive later in their life when they have no parents to validate for them, will they be unable to function and made decisions?

Hmm this can be the same in a relationship. It need validation. How will a couple validate their love for each others, for outsiders to see? Do you need to prove who gave more in a relationship? Do u need to prove the non-believers wrong?

I have gone for a religion class last nite and the topics that were been discussed set me pondering.

Qn 1: If your close friend is not allowed to contribute to the religion and family members prohibited the involvement in the religion, what will u do to help them.

To this qn, I have an instant respone," no idea, its' none of my business ."
But after a while, it set me thinking, maybe that friend may neglect the family due to religious commitment. Maybe the parents dun understand the child's action. Their child can no longer be figured out and this made them scared and insecure.

Then I suppose this is a time for validation. The child can validate their love for the parents and family members by being more involve in family doing, by being at hm more and listen to their complains abt other stuffs that matter to them.

This then lead to a torrential pour of thoughts that flood my brains. Maybe everyone need validation irregardless of age, gender, martial status or sexual preference. It is nice for someone to pat on your back and say that u are alrite, gd job, u are attractive or it is ok to make mistakes.

Thus I m a convert, this up my scale to a more balanced 5.

Meat market

I was up. BRight and early. Tho my date with S&C last thru 2am... I m hooked. This set me pondering abt me,myself and my country. Let me do a small comparisonsbetween the big apple and the lion city.

No.1: BIg apple has more gays, or prehaps I shd be fair to say higher percentage of gays getting out of their closets, than Lion.
No.2: You can be broke in NY and wahlaa, u can still get your shoes.
No. 3: Men in the forties are desirable there, they are normally rich, powerful and single. Men in the forties here that are single are poor things who need to find vietnam wife or appeared in National paper to be pitited at.
No.5: Nobody will batt a eye regarding your sex life aka having sex like a man in NY. Same actions and miles away in LC, your friend and family may disowned u.
No.6: you can be hooked up, anywhere, anytime, be it on the street or the gym, the last time I count, I m speaking to aunties in the gym instead.

So which city do I prefer? Tho NY is exciting, I probably get cardiac arrest sooner in this meat market... I still prefer the safe and nice environment of garden city, at least if nothing else happen to me in the romance dept, I get longevity... + there are such things named DVD so that I can get snippets of the thrills of the vibrancy of NY.

To go or not to go...

Hmm vee gal jio me to watch circus de solique, but then the price is a bit steep sia... Hmm but then it is value for money, think that Cat A seats got the better view. I had watched a circus performance before, not the de solique tho, but it is quite enjoyable... Still I think I have spent lot of money already, must see lah, most likely will go loh... But if next year got Li Yundi concert, then I wun have money... Vee gal say that we may not get his gala tickets... Ahhh. Would really love to see him performing the chopin number on his piano. He look so powerful and charming in front of it.

My colleague lend me her sex and the city DVD for the holiday... gd gd, I can watch it liao. As you noe that I always learn from the city gals, this is of great importance to me.

Any one of u has watch this serial before? If yes, who do u indentify with the most?
My fav is Miranda, sassy independant single mum, who is a harvard grad lawyer, wow she is really power. Have to say that I like the rest of the cast too. They make the serial so colourful, and each one of them is so different... A sure hit, but the topic that they gone through is a bit controvisal, tats y it can't be aired in Singapore. Despite the claim, we are still less receptive to certain stuff. Altho, I enjoy the show, some of the things that are being mentioned are not too advisable.

Tmr is the beginning of the one wk sch holidays, but doesn't means that I wld be less busy. But I m going to take a laid back attitude this wkend. Dun be stress, eat well, drink lot of water( to prevent cellulite) shop and exercise. I will then think of my marking and the setting of papers on Monday... Till then, I will lobo.

Gonna go Bugis later to buy yoyos as door gift for my religion gp outing on Sun... Maybe, I can check out the new NLB...

Rush hour.

I m a super women.
Went for 2hr yoga at wdl cc yesterday,
followed by a 1.5 hr of tuition, then rush to cali gym for a 2hr gym session and then proceed for a 2hr religion class.

Wah, that are all done wif just 1 kaya bread and 2 ang ku keuh in my stomach as I have no time for lunch due to the rushing...
*pant* even I, m amazed by my own power.I thot I suppose to be old. I must a few breath left inside me loh.

But I feel tat my left arm look more toned than my right arm now... my righty seems to be more bulky leh... HOW... I think I tend to use my right arm more while doing the lateral pull. That may be the cause lah... *sob*

Nvm, I think I can do more dumb bell to balanced my arms... till then I remained an unbalanced women... shd walk sideway like a crab... hahah

Stoopid me...

Being the scatterbrain I am, I always lose my stuff. Books lah, cards lah, and most of all, those documents and cards that are very important.

Then I will be in a frenzy...
Step 1: Searching those doc like a siao zha bo.
Step 2: After donkey ages, I will be sitting in the midst of the mess, representing the eye of the tornado destruction.
Step3: I will lament, why I din do proper documentation and safekeeping of my stuff.
Step4: I will then vow that I will be more organised and neat in the future.
Step5: Re organise my stuff
Step 6: Remedised and replace my lost watever.

Months later, after swearing for the millionth times that I will not lose my stuff again. The cycle will repeat again. Vicious it sure is. I m sure it is bad kharma.

Today it happen to me again. I m searching v hard, really hard for my passbook I m sweating so profusely that I can be a stand in for sweaty pig.

Impossible, I always put my passbook on my second bk shelf, now where is it?
Hmm I need to find it so that I can update my transaction made yesterday to the rollerblade seller. It is impt as there is no receipt given and the pretty teller told me that that transaction is not registerd in their comp... Duh...

Finally, I found my Passbook stack inside my advanced grammer book tat I have never read,(apparently) but have been chuck on my book shelf... Heng I go and take a look, else I will pay $15 for passbook replacement, and mY dad will kill me for dragging him to the bank to do this as he is my joint acc holder.

Sometime I m not so heng lah... Then I will gone through the whole hassle and swear to god tat I will turn over a new leaf, but remained as a rotton one months down the road.*sob* why I nv change...

Same can be said for my financial staus due to buying habits and my procrastination toward work.

Why do I have to keep stucking in a runt.
Hmm now I can't find my particulars for my netball gals, jia lat, must key in the CCA point by monday... DUn tell me I have to go thru the frenzy AGAIN? ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *dead*

Shdn't disappoint my audience

Juan has email me and say tat she like my blog.... Yippe
I m really happy to see tat my blog can be entertaining. Hope that she can set up a blog soon sia.

Today will be work late till the nite at office. Hmm need to calculate and key in final CA marks + comments by this wk. I guess I gonna cut and paste all those comments... Sucks and I need to key in attendance for the CCA before next week as well.. Oh Oh so much for the procrastination. duh. And these kind of thing cannot be done after sch as I need the sch network. Sharks.


Still I have to update on some happy thing. I have done a virgin auction and has bought myself a K2 roller blade. To all those who noe me, noe I can't blade. Haha but the price is too gd for a K2 blade as it normally cost a lot... Maybe I can loan it to ah Li and claim some money back loh. Haha But by having the blades I can practice at the nearby garden on my own... Or maybe can ask ah hui to teach me if I got the time loh...
Typical me, buy the thing first then learnt... Hope tat I can cruise along ECP wif my blade before long.

See No matter how stress up I m , I still can find things to entertain myself. Yesterday, I went for my first kickboxing session at amore. Not as siong as I expected, my punches and Jabs are gd, but my kick is so limb that I shd be ashamed. Then Yesterday I discover that I have gone for the amore lesson so frequently tat I will finish my 12 times in 1.5 mths... Arhhh must upgrade to the unlimited plan soon...

No money liao woh, I think i spent too much $$$ for my exercise and now gear... haha. Must save first, then go for lesson lah.

Btw, there is a wakeboarding clinic for $20 for Shape reader. V cheap, any one who feel like joining, pls read SHape at pg 23 sept issue... Contact me if u want to join hoh.

Adios, need to go for lesson now.

土曜日について

What do u do or see when u wake up?
I will normally be wobby and unclear before going to work in an auto pliot mode.
This will continue till Sat.
When I wake up, will see a miniature man, talking to me even when my mental has not awaken. Today, my miniature men is wear a blue beret and trying to impress me with his stories of his new rank. Ahhh but at least he is trying his best to be less of a bore.

Sat, my fav day of the week. I can go out, FINALLY (well, actually Friday is not too bad too). Things that I do on Sat is always frown upon by my well-meaning colleauge, who think I shd spent my time more fruitfully, meaning to go and meet men and noe more potential. Ha, I wun work tat way, I dun have the incredulous powess to cause men to be besotted wif me.

I indentified with Miranda in S&C, " I m not sexy, sexy is a thing that I try to get men to see before I bowled them over with my personalities. " Haha and to bowl them over with personalties is really hard and time consuming. Wearing a sexy camisole require less time than been entertaining, unless u count the effort needed to grin and be demure yet naughty at the same time, doing tat is so amazing tat it is probably oscar worthy.


I m n0t a natural at that. But for some people, it is done so naturally and prefectly that nobody will do the roll their eyes things when those natural do their act...

I want to be a natural... sob, but unless I gone for comestic surgery or total personalities change I can only make use of my sense of humour as a shield to the fact that I m a pathetic and ugly sot. Thus it is better to do things that I like on Sat instead of being an entertainer or a bad actor. I might as well throw in a white towel and renonce searching for the rite guy.

BUt, that doesn't stop me from drooling and ahhing at those cute stranger whom I can only encounter on ... rite. tats y I LOVE Sat.

Chick Lit

Have been reading a chick Lit today. " Diary of a working girl", quite a read actually, toking abt finding love when working in a finance company. Haha, a gd read for vee gal and ah Li... tat girl work in wall street and she is overwhelmed by the sight of men. By increase in proportion of men ard her, she has increaseed her opportunity in finding her m & m aka magic men who can save her in any situation.

My colleague was very surprise that I have time to read despite of my supposedly busy schedule. Well, reading those stuff is like a balm to my soul. It temporary satisfied my thrist for excitement in my otherwise blase life. That bk is also quite realistic and the author is writing in first person. I really dislike those third person writing style , esp in chick lit as it is somewhat impersonal.

See... nothing else to write regarding my life. Maybe I shd really change job and meet new pple. See... our ah Li is so happening recently. Turning into an ugly shade of green wif envy.

Now, I need to set worksheet for tmr class and ought to finish marking my maths test by tonite... Sob... Wishing myself in Harry potter land, only then I can conjure some spell or make some potion to enhance my life... Ahhhhhhhhhh

The wise has this saying, " u should be thankful to what u have already gotten and be satisfied." I m trying. Yet to no avail.

Snack analysis

Men are been judged by the car that they drive. The horsepower, the model depicts the men's lifestyle and philosophy.How about women? What can be used, to judge them.
" Must be the snack that they eat."
Hmm really? It is just snack or, generally, the food that they eat?
" food is a staple, people will just eat whatever it seems tasty in the eaterary, and the food they order may defer when they go to different places."
Well it sound like the main course is more like women's choice for men, all the comparisons and the choices made depending on various situations.

"Right! On a normal day, a plate of $3.00 chicken rice at maxwell market is good enuf for me, but if I got the time and money, I will go to the Far east square for a more expensive Japanese meal. Beside,I still love my chicken rice, but if something better come along my way, I will be a fool to reject it."

To me,

Chicken rice = nice bloke, but not exciting, yet good husband material

Expensive food = dangerous rouge, that is good for indulgence and nothing else

Okie, main meal refer to the men the women want,so how can snack reflect the women's personalities or lifestyle?

My fav snack and tibits are cheesy ringo and bee bee. Both cheap and easy available. I just love to suck the leftover cheese on the finger when I eat the ringo. Bee bee is always in a small packet, and I wun feel guilty when I eat it.

Snack analysis : sensual, practical. dun care abt class or image, ( cheap food wat) and always afraid of how those snack will ruin one's figure.

" Hey how abt doing a snack analysis for me?''

Vingear and salt potatoes chip form Marks and Spencer : appreciate style and no fuss. But can be anal at times and demand perfection. Well dressed at most occasions.

Dark chocolates with 70% cocoa : sensual, love challenges and is a team leader.

Hey, am I correct? U decide.